I weighed in this morning at 200.0 lbs. I felt like I did really well this week and I have no idea why the number on the scale did not reflect that. I feel healthier and lighter on my feet and I FEEL like I am losing weight... but apparently that is not the case. I feel like I am doing as much as I can... not as much as is humanly possible, but as much as a breast feeding mom with a toddler and an infant can do right now. Somehow its just not enough. Do you ever feel like what you do is NEVER enough... yeah.
I was so disappointed this morning that I moped on the couch and watched Grey's Anatomy on Netflix while Nick and the kids went on a long walk. Then I ate about a million butterscotch chips and a couple bowls of ice cream. If I am going to be fat anyway, I might as well have fun doing it, right?
Feeling pretty down today. Not sure what direction to take from here. That's all for today.
My love. I hate seeing you discouraged like this! As a frequent up-and-downer on the scale, I've had to learn how my own body copes changes in its composition. Meaning, I have had to learn to focus on how much better I am feeling and know that the long run is what is going to really show how hard I've been working. Every little bit counts! I think focusing on an overall lifestyle change instead of the number on the scale (which means almost nothing to my extremely dense frame) has helped my sanity over the years. I'm sure none of this is really news to you, but I have to make sure I put forth some encouragement! Love you, Rebecca! You can do this! -Erin :)
ReplyDeleteThank you, Erin. Your encouragement really made me smile. :-)
DeleteDon't be discouraged! You've been amazing tracking your calories and eating only high quality foods. I love seeing you grow and it hurts me deeply when you're bummed. Push on and stay the course. :)
ReplyDeleteYou are still doing GREAT! It took my body weeks and weeks to start showing some progress... it was so minimal that I wanted to quit every day. I've never had the "whee, there goes 6 pounds in a week!" that other people get (I want to punch them). I get 0.0-1.0 pounds in a week, even though I am living VERY differently than I used to. But I know that it won't come back because I'm learning how to keep it off. I'd rather do a giant weight dump and then learn to maintain, but my body is committed to this turtle progress - slow and steady. It is infuriating. But someday, we will ROCK and this will totally pay off. People who drop 20 in a month will envy us... I haven't worked out exactly why or how that will happen, but I know it will. Loves to you! I'm really proud of you!
ReplyDeleteI love you, Jaime! You SO get it. XOXO
DeleteYou have been doing great Rebecca -you didn't gain anything! I've been struggling these last few months . . . working out 5 nights a week, tracking points, and lastly doing the couch to 5k program. I maintained for about 3 weeks & otherwise saw losses of .2 & .3 lbs. I was beginning to think all the hard work just wasn't worth it (especially with it being at the crack of dawn or after the boys went to bed). Yesterday I weighed in with a loss of 2.6 lbs so I can honestly say, "Hang in there!" Yesterday at WW we talked about how to "Be A Winner! How to learn from, and triumph over, slip-ups." One mistake does not make you BAD nor does a slight gain or even maintaining when you really want to lose. We all have to accept that we will make mistakes. Failure is all in how we view it. Recognizing a misstep without a negative judgment means we can move on. You're not alone in this fight!!!
ReplyDeleteThank you. Your recent motivation to exercise is really inspirational to me. You go girl. Thanks for encouraging me.
DeleteMaybe 200 is your plateu and you just have to keep working to see the numbers go down. If you are eating healthier that IS better. It means you are treating your body well and in years to come your body will thank you for that. I love you!
ReplyDeleteGood reminder. Its not all about losing weight, its about treating my body well and helping it stay healthy for as long as possible. Love and miss you.
DeleteThanks for all the encouragement, it has REALLY helped me get back on the horse today. I mean that. <3
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